You know those weeks where everything compiles perfectly? Yeah, this wasn’t one of them.

Not much Java studied. No tutorials written. Just me, my grief, and the realisation that sometimes your local branch is a bit too messy to push.

In this post, I reflect on the importance of rest in a field that’s always pushing. If your mental health has ever felt like an unresolved merge conflict, this one’s for you.

🖖 git commit -m "One step at a time."

Sometimes, life throws so many merge conflicts at you that you feel like abandoning the whole repository. This past week? Yeah, it was one of those.

I didn’t write much code. I didn’t study much Java. I didn’t even pretend to study Java. What I did do was keep my family afloat, manage my grief, and try to make it through the sprint with some semblance of emotional uptime. If life had a status command, mine would return: detached HEAD, no commits this week.

The Pressure to Push

In tech, we talk a lot about pushing. Pushing code. Pushing updates. Pushing ourselves to learn faster, build quicker, deliver better. But what happens when your internal server just... times out?

There’s a hidden truth behind every highlight reel: some weeks are less about feature branches and more about bug fixes... the personal kind. Mental health, grief, burnout, all of these are issues you can’t solve with a quick Stack Overflow copy-paste. (Trust me, I tried.)

Pause, Stash, Regroup

This week, I embraced a different workflow:

git stash
commit -m "Taking care of myself and my family."
# No push today.

I let go of the guilt that comes with not being "productive". I reminded myself that stepping away doesn’t mean I’ve lost progress, it means I’m making space for a better commit later.

Maintenance Mode is Still Progress

Think of it this way: even servers go down for maintenance. Sometimes, the bravest thing a developer can do is say, “I need to breathe, and that’s okay.”

So, here I am. Still standing. Still versioning. Still figuring things out. And you know what? I’ll be back to pushing code (and blog posts) soon enough. Until then, I’m committing to breathe.

If your week’s been more git revert than git push origin main, you’re not alone.

Keep branching. Keep moving at your own pace. We’ll merge again soon.